Change

When I was younger, I was always skeptical of the things people told me. I always needed to have things proven to me before I would believe them.  Maybe that is because I was always very independent. 

As my life goes on, there was a moment in my life that I never thought would come as soon as it did.  On that Saturday afternoon, I got a call from my girlfriend.  As she spoke the tone of her voice changed, it sounded like there was something wrong. It came to me; she was mad at me because I went out last night and didn’t call her. I was wrong.  It appeared that she needed to talk to me in person, but I realized I had no idea what was on her mind.  I found out later that afternoon; she said in a slow timid voice “I’m pregnant”!   

Millions of thoughts went through my mind. ”I don’t believe you!”   “Are you sure?”  “Have you tested yourself yet?” “When?” “Are you really sure?”  Or you’re just playing with my mind to see what I’ll say about it. I stood alone thinking to myself: “how could this happen.”  I always thought my life would be all fun and games.  Life as I knew it was fun.  I had planned to go to school, get a good job, and maybe travel.  I never thought this could happen to me.  For the rest of the night I couldn’t think of anything else.

I called her later to ask her to take another pregnancy test so I could be sure that I going to be a father. The very next day we bought a pregnancy test to see if the result is the same.  As we wove though the store looking for the pregnancy test, I kept asking myself: “how could this happen! Why me! Why can’t this come later in life why now?” Then, there it was, in the middle of the shelf.  “The” test the one that will tell me how life going to turn out.  Now it was in the hands of “faith”. On the way home I kept picturing both a plus and a minus sign. If it turns out to be positive; I guess that’s how life is going to be then “I’ll be a father”.  As she goes in, the door closes behind her; she takes the test, and walks out.  The result will show up in minutes.  It seems like life on a thin line right now! When the waiting was over, she went in to look. I followed. The moment of truth! A blue line. 

Oh no! As I look closer and it showed a positive sign. Frustration showed on my face as I processed the results. I’m going to be a father! I’m going to be a father! I’m going to be a father!  As I look at her, all she said “I told you!” “I told you!”  I replied: I guess you were right.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized that it didn’t have to be a bad thing.  I guess it could be a good change in life, like no more parties, going out or going out of town. The party life is over now.  It’s time to show that I can change. Show that I’m ready to be a father now.  The nine months of waiting came fast and on November of 16^th of 2006 our child, a son named Vincent was born.    Marvel at a gift of Vincent. We never know what direction life will take us to. All we need to make the best in our life.  Life as you all know it can change in seconds.